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So, I cleared my 'to do' list so I could concentrate on writing fanfic for the Mag7 Christmas stockings... and I'm having a hard time getting motivated.  I'm actually having a hard time getting motivated to stitch, too, either on the machine or hand embroidery... it's kind of annoying, because it's the perfect time to do stuff, and I feel like I'm moping.  Oi.

The only good thing is... I've been getting back into Misty Lackey's Valdemar-verse again lately, trying to get into the Mags saga....   And I say this is a good thing not because I'm reading, but because I feel like she's jumped the shark a bit... and that urge to complain and set out my argument might push me into getting excited about this stuff again and dreaming and thinking 'what would happen if?'  I don't know if this is chemo-brain or not, this feeling that i just can't get into anything creative, can't focus.  But I'm going to start laying out my argument anyway, in an attempt to jump-start some brainwaves.

So, Lackey's formula for Heralds of Valdemar has an abused youngster miraculously saved by a Companion (intelligent, telepathic, white horse), who goes on to serve the Kingdom of Valdemar in capacity as a Herald, who is basically a combination law-giver, first responder, and dirty trickster-on-the-side-of-light.  She introduced us to this world with Talia (Arrows of the Queen) and pretty solidified it with Vanyel (The Last Herald-Mage).  I loved those works and still think those characters are very deep and well-rounded, with a good, solid set of motivations.  I kind of got disgusted with Lavan Firestorm and Brightly Burning, and couldn't quite make myself read Takes a Thief, Skif's story, on the chance that she'd screwed up with him, too, and Skif is an awesome character.  And for a while, I stayed away from the universe because of other pretties that were written better, I felt.  Then came my current issues, and I started re-reading some Valdemar-verse fanfic (The Grass is Greener Series is amazing... and hilarious, and on AO3), and I got all excited again, and decided to pick up the pro books.  And that's where Mags comes in.

Lackey stuck to her best formula for Mags's back-story - he's a orphan that a mine-owner picked up with other orphans to and put to work chipping gems.  Because the mine owner is an a$$hole, he barely gives the kids enough to live on, barely enough to keep them warm, etc etc.  One day, a Companion comes to the mine looking to Choose.  The mine-owner chases him off, only to have a full Herald come back with his own Companion and the original.  Mags, of course, is the Choosee.  Mags is a strong personality, and the saving Herald Jakyr, is a complicated individual.  When the two finally get back to the Palace, Jakyr tells Mags that a new Trainee system is going into affect with his class.  That is, they're building a new Heraldic Collegium in addition to rebuilding Healer's and Bardic's.  Previously, all the Heralds learned on an apprentice system, basically, and the full Herald who first found the Trainee took up the new Herald for mentoring.  It is pointed out that there are over 60 Herald Trainees, and that the Heralds are basically going from an organization where everyone knows everyone else to one where there's about to be too many Heralds for personal relationships.

This... has the potential to be a good story.  And if Lackey had set it about 2-300 years after founding, I'd think it would be well placed.  Unfortunately, it's not.  It's explicitly stated that this is about 75-100 years after the last herald-mage.  In between Vanyel and Talia, the size of the kingdom has doubled, expanding to the north and the west.  But even at Vanyel's time, it takes him a week on horseback at normal horse-pace to get to Forst Reach (his birth home) to the west of the capital.  Figure this is about 200 miles or there-abouts.  And the border is even further - witness his hectic ride to Highjorune in Magic's Pride.  So at Vanyel's time, Valdemar is a rough square about 460 miles wide and maybe 500 miles high.  In this setting, there are at least: 

1) The Monarch, Heir, and Monarch's Own Herald
2) The Seneschal's Herald and the Lord Martial's Herald
3) The 4 Guardians of the Web, which were not any of the Herald's we knew in the first LHM book.
4) The courts of Haven - it's been established that Haven has several local courts which include attention from Heralds stationed at Haven just for that purpose as needed.
5) The Weaponsmaster always seems to be a Herald, and at least some of the regular teachers are Heralds.

So if we assume there are 4 courts in Haven with Heralds in attendance every day, then there's always at least 10 Heralds assigned to Haven proper.  We can assume at least half-dozen more for teachers.  16.

In addition, there is:
6) Regular Courier Heralds, assume 2 per major road, or 8 total.
7) Regular Circuit Heralds, and we're never sure exactly how many circuit locations Valdemar has.  But, if a circuit is a 200 x 100 mile swatch, then in Vanyel's time, there were 10 circuit Heralds as a consistency.... (I'm making a guess, here, because it's difficult to estimate distances with a guide of 18 month circuit, every place hit twice.  I'm probably wrong... but I'm also probably wrong about how big Valdemar is, too.)
8) Ambassadorial Heralds, which may not be usual, but do occur.  Say 3 random/ roaming Heralds.
9) An on-going war with Karse.  Vanyel replaces 5 Herald-Mages by himself at one point, and it is clear that this is in addition to all the other Heralds out there.  I'm sure those Heralds weren't the only ones fighting.

Ok, at this point, with a complete non-understanding of how big Valdemar is, we have at least 42 Heralds in Valdemar at the time of Vanyel... this is not including Vanyel himself, or his Aunt Sayvil.

It's pointed out in Mags's book that there are 60 new Trainees, and one character exclaims that's enough that every single Herald, including the King's Own, would have to take 4 apprentices if that were the case.  Um... 60 divided by 4 is 25.  Assuming the actual numbers didn't change in 100 years, there's plenty of heralds on tap for that.  Not that I'd suggest it, but 42 Heralds (plus Van and Sayvil, minus the Crowns) could easily divide up 60 trainees into 2 per with room left over.

The other side is how many people does it take before you're not on a first name basis with everyone in your organization?  It'll be different for everyone.  But, frex, my real-work office has about 200 people in it, and I can ID by site, although not name, about 80%.  Some people know all the names, some people know all the faces.  But 200 in a time when memorization is a handy skill is not that much.

There's another thing - at one point, Vanyel mentions the palace servants are used to Heralds talking to thin air - that wouldn't happen unless Heralds are pretty pervasive, to the point of being commonplace.  Also, Heralds are common in Haven, and in the towns closest to the city, who are used to courier riders and the like. 

What it comes down to, to my mind, is that it just doesn't jibe.  Either at Vanyel's time there's a lot more Heralds out there, or there can't be that many Trainees, and thus the time-setting is all wrong.  I get that Valdemar is about to undergo a major expansion, but like I said, it just feels like this should have happened way earlier in the country's timeline.  Like the *first* major expansion.  Remember that the Companions live an average of 10 years before Choosing, and that they have to have a herd large enough to generate future Companions, and make up for losses.  So they're not just having kids at replacement rate - they're growing in numbers to ensure a growth of chosen.  So 10 years  ago, no one noticed a crop of 60 fillies and colts when there's a grand total of 40 Companions, half of whom can't bear children, and half of the ones that can are out on circuit? 

Now that I think about it, no one's ever explained the inner workings of the Companion's Herd.  Someone should talk to those guys.

In any case, if this were the first major expansion of Valdemar, where the people have begun to spill over the defensive city walls and scatter about the outlying countryside - I could totally be there.  But the Heraldic Collegium being new *after* Vanyel's time just doesn't work for me, and I'll probably retcon the timing of it in my personal canon, and assume any references to Vanyel were accidentally copied in by an over-enthusiastic bard.

-boogieshoes
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And my theory for stitching while waiting for the drip has... dripped away.  Part of the pre-med cocktail to help you tolerate the chemo drugs is benedryl.  The OTC version knocks me out pretty good... the dose they gave me knocked me kinda flat for 3 hours, and i wasn't in a brain-space to focus on embroidery when i woke up.  Fortunately, I brought a book and read.  But I was laughing at myself, because once again, plans did not survive the first contact with the 'enemy'.  Hadn't counted on the benedryl, hah.  I'll just have to embroider the couple days after chemo.

In other news, I *finally* finished doing one of my old laptops for roomie. This project was kind of a bear for a number of reasons, but since it is complete, officially, i'm happy to have it off my chest.  Roomie was very sweet, and gave my dog a rawhide bone to work on while both of us were gone all day today.  Abbie loved this last night, and pounced on it this morning.... and completely ignored it today while I was gone... I love my dog, but she's a bit of a goof, hah.

My mother will pull out my sewing machine for me tomorrow and put it on the table. I want to do more sewing on my cousin's pillow that can be done at the machine.  I think I figured out a pleasing lace arrangement.  The more I can do on the machine, the better. Getting the machine out isn't as easy to avoid as it sounds... I'm still not supposed to drag heavy things around with the shoulder my port's in - my right shoulder, and i'm right-handed, and so i tend to reach for things with the right hand first. Oi.  While i do like my port, because it saves rooting around looking for a vein, it also felt like a horse kicked me for the two days after the procedure.  Speaking of ports, it is really weird to *taste* saline when it is emptied into the *port*.  I never knew anything other than DMSO had that sort of effect.

One of my 'duties' this week is going through my old e-files and getting ready to write something/ finish something I've started in order to fill the Mag7 fandom stocking.  I'll try to start the writing next week.  We shall see.

teal deer - not dead yet, handling actual chemo drugs fine, closely monitoring myself the next few days to see how I handle the normal side affects.  I'm working on mag7 fandom stuff.

-boogieshoes, chemo'd in good faith
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i think it'll be 5, but i'm going to bullet-point this anyway ;)

*  My dog's new nickname is 'Blanket-Stealer' - somehow, despite the fact that she sleeps on top of the covers, and i have an extra blanky under the covers on my side of the bed, i woke up this morning cold, mostly *un*-covered, and worse, unable to scoot covers out from under the dog...

* My dog is an ass... roomie did a great job cleaning the house today, so Abbie decided she needed to BOUND through the mud, first thing this afternoon when I came home....

* A broke furnace isn't so bad, even in the middle of winter, when you're having hot flashes.

* I haz an awake...  i'd much rather have an asleep

* I should remember that my stomach does not like vinegary salad dressings.... make me queasy.

* Due to recent fanfic adventures, I'm getting excited about Heralds of Valdemar again... I'm seriously thinking about picking up the Collegium Chronicles Quintet for myself for Christmas.  Except the quick check of her official timeline shows the CC taking place about 100yrs after the Last Herald-Mage Trilogy.... except I'm pretty sure there are references to the Collegia *in* the LHM, which means serious ret-conning on ML's part....  I'm still pondering - has anyone picked up the Collegium Chronicles?  Any comments?

*  I am totally going to start living in my office, soon, which means *i'm* going to be trying to produce fanfic...  Hopefully, fanfic for christmas stockings...

-boogieshoes
 


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So, I had my post-op appointment yesterday, and unfortunately, the final pathology wasn't good.  Stage 3 cancer, grade 1. 

The good news is that since they took the uterus and everything, there's not likely to be any more cancer cells in the body.  The bad news is, i get to go through chemo and radiation.  Whoop. E.

Not really looking forward to that, but it is what it is.  First round of chemo on Dec 12.  Doc tells me I'm pretty certain to lose my hair, so I will probably shave it and invest in some colorful head-scarves.  And maybe some giant clip-on earring so I can look like a pirate all day....

I can tell I'm feeling somewhat dispirited at this point, even though the chemo and radiation are more an issue of good preventive measures right now.  It's just that I wanted to come home yesterday and through away the green folder that has held all my medical appt information and stuff yesterday as a sign Things Were Over.    Instead, things are not over, and I get to look forward to a treatment that tends to make people feel almost as bad as the thing it's a treatment *for*.  And also, given that pretty much every step of this journey, my doctors have been saying 'the indicators look fine', followed by the next step revealing something more serious... let's just say I'm a little paranoid at this point.  Until I've got that 100% cancer free number, I'm not going to be 'sure everything will be ok'.

I will fight to the bitter end, or the triumphant ending, but right now... feeling less happy and more growly over the whole thing. 

I am determined, however - I will not let this win, nor will it define my life. 

On the gripping hand, cookies may well be in order.... and maybe a footrub from Buck.  Speaking of which, I am determined to take part of my time right now and write something for the general fandom Christmas stocking.  Not necessarily something Christ-massy, I'm not sure I have *that* in me, but something that I've been trying to get back to on my WIP pile.  And hopefully, that promise to my fandom will help me get over my current funk.

I appreciate all my fandom friends and hugs to you all.  Sorry for the sad news?

-boogieshoes
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.... i just watched most of American Dragons (I'm pretty sure I missed the first half-hour or so).  I didn't know Chris could speak Korean!

Hehe.  There are some fairly yummy scenes of Beihn shirtless... Beihn rolling around in the mud.... alas, not at the same time. 

I'm just saying I thank the Gods of Recovery for this opportunity, hee.

-boogie, in a good mood

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So... Thursday at way-too-early in the morning I went in to have my cyst, ovary, and fallopian tube removed.  The doctor took the option to buy more.  They  ended up taking both ovaries and the uturus and cervix.  I knew this was a possibility, of course, so i'm still in that 50-50 stage over it.

You know, 50% is like 'yay, no periods!'  and 50% is like 'wait, no more protective hormones...'  I'll be on HRT, so hopefully, surgical menopause won't be that bad, and I won't lose too much bone mass, etc.  And for sure, I'd rather they take the whole shebang than worry about something left behind that didn't need to be.

Because the cyst turned out to be 'gnarlier' (doc's words, no lie) than they expected, and had also developed some supporting structures connecting it to my bowel.  It looked borderline at the staging, so.... out came the whole shebang.  Not my preferred option, but as I said, I'd rather they be safe than sorry, too.  We're going to have a biopsy follow-up in a couple weeks, and I'm going to make sure I follow the logical decision chain, not because i'm critical of doc, but because I like to know/ understand things like that.

Unfortunately, they didn't get pictures, or measurements, or weights!  silly doctors!

In general, I'm doing very well - surprisingly, they only had to make 5 small cuts on my abdomen.  Totally laproscopic.  Much better for recovery.  I'm still a bit sore, and I'm sleeping in my recliner for a couple days because when Abbie does press on me - it does irritate it a bit.  So I know when I move to the bed and Abbie gets as close as she can, it'll hurt.  Managed to pick up a slight cough, probably because of the tube during surgery.  That hurts enough I'm not looking forward to a sneeze! 

The biggest surprise about the 5 small cuts is that I thought the uturus and whatnot would be too big to take out that way - makes me think those anatomy pics in high school biology were not to scale, heh.


As i said, doing well.  Occassionally sleepy, as to be expected.  Mom's in the house, and I'm glad I've got the physical and emotional support, and glad all my fandom-friends are here for me, too.  *hugs to all*

-boogieshoes, the slightly sore
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what it says on the tin.  I'll post an update monday-ish.  not expecting any issues except after-surgery soreness, standard, 1 ea.  try not to worry guys.

i've been thinking of nanowrimo this year.... probably can't do the whole month, but maybe i can put some time in on projects i've been wanting to write on... here's hoping.

-boogieshoes, ready for alien baby delivery
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the alien baby thing is wearing on me.  *sigh*  so. ready. for the surgery and rest from all the stress.  that is all.

-boogie
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i promise i'll do a hallowe'en-y rah-rah post tomorrow... i've just been drawn to this embroidery project i'm working on.  i'd show you what i'm working on, but i have to figure out how to get the link to work from here.  i've been using dropbox to store my pics online...

anyway, i think it's coming along great.  and also abbie finally sat still for a pic, hah.

-boogie, stitching away
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Ok, so, the alien baby thing is progressing right along.... I now have a firm date for surgery, Nov 1st.  I will be out from work for 6wks on short term disability/ FMLA.  However, I have planned vacation starting the week after FMLA ends, and then the week after that is Christmas break, so, gone for the rest of the year.  Which is ok, I'll probably appreciate the time.

The down side is that Christmas Revel, an event I usually go to every year, is unlikely for me this year, and so is driving to Mom and Dad's for break.  I have invited Mom and Dad down for break, but no telling how that's going to go - Christmas is a pretty busy season.

Last weekend, I got a recliner, and shopped in-person and online for a few things to make it easier to recover.  Recliner is in the house, most everything is set up, and the last thing to come in.... is the body pillow pillow-case.  Why Wally-world doesn't sell body pillow-cases when they sell the body *pillows*, I'll never know....

Also! final roof thing is DONE, It's OVER!  Everything is good and paid off and ok, except for the small loan I had to take out to cover my part of the roof.  But that I can/ will pay off on my own time. 

So next things I really want to finish before November 1st are sewing at the machine, oiling the wood chair, and putting water-seal on the boards i'm going to be using as my floor-joists when I camp. 

Everything I want/ need to do in the yard completely depends on the weather, and it's been raining so much here that 'swampy' is the only way to properly describe ground conditions.  And because of that, I've decided to move building the second garden box until after the new year.  The ground will probably be drier by then (ok, *hopefully* drier by then) and I can drive out there with my truck to set the box up.  Which is really the only way to get the sides out there when they're built with plasti-board, which is much heavier than straight wood. (The advantage being that plasti-board won't rot in 2 years....)

And I've decided on this year's Hallowe'en Prompt Theme Pics.... ALIENS, because what else could I do?  But chibi-style aliens, because CUTE! ahem. :)

Feeling less stressed, and taking things 1 day at a time,
-boogieshoes
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... just feeling a little stressed.  there's so much that needs to be done:

1) on the yard, but there's large swatches that are still soggy from the rains, making it impossible to do yard work.  if i'm lucky, it'll dry out before surgery, so i can at least give it a good mow.

2) on the garden:  i want to do another garden box (i do raised bed gardening), but that means ordering in the plasticized wood, cutting to size, putting the sides together, then pre-drillling, then dragging the entire thing out to the garden area to set up... *if* the yard dries out enough to bring it out there by truck!

     2a)  and then i should fill the box with dirt and mulch and dirt....
     2b)  and the garden area could use a bunch more pine straw mulch....
     2c) and i really need to re-do the fence... *sigh*

3) speaking of yard chores - i need to do yearly attack-the-trees, so the branches don't swipe people off the mower as it goes by.... i'm really thinking about getting an arborist or someone to just take 'em all out so i can replant with what i want.  there's only 3 trees on the whole lot i want to keep.  the other ones are plain ugly.

4) gotta somehow keep sewing and stuff, because i probably won't be able to sew at the machine while i'm recovering....

5) gotta clean up stuff for mom to come in and stay while she helps me.

6) gotta get stuff ready for me being on my back in bed for a bit... which requires some thinking, because i'm a do-er, and like to have something to do, and tend to rotate between stitching, puzzle books, reading DTF books, and reading fanfic.... that's going to require a slight change of set-up compared to what i have now.  i was thinking it'd be nice to have a lap-desk that i can put a jigsaw puzzle on while i'm in bed - haven't done one of those in a while... and that's even more stuff!

and then there's : finish the last bit o' things from the roof.   *start* all the paperwork associated with the surgery and the short-term disability, and in the meantime, my PC physician had a bit of a splort, so i'm wrestling with getting the right perscription...

oh, and i have no idea how abbie's going to handle things...

and i just realized October's around the corner, and i haven't even *thought* about the Hallowe'en prompt fest!

ARGH!!!!!

ahem, that is all....

-boogieshoes, with a few headache-lines.... 
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So, a short update on the Alien Baby before I go visit relatives in Oregon for a week. 

1) it has been decided to give the Baby a name.... I decided 'Shatner' was appropriate for an alien ;)

2) OB appointment yesterday was smooth.  We discovered the baby wasn't attached to the uterus, but one of the ovaries, but there's no indication it's cancerous, so that's good.

3) Some time after vacation, but probably before Christmas, but not yet determined, the Alien Baby and Parent Ovary are going to be removed.  Part of me wants to remove the whole shebang, uterus and all, but the logical side of me says I'm better off with the estrogen and progesterone the remaining ovary will provide.  The trade off is still having periods until natural menopause.  Oh well.   It's not like I haven't dealt with periods before...

4) I haven't had a recovery timeline given to me yet; that will probably come with the pre-surgery consult.  It'll be a minimum of 3 weeks, I'm sure, and our HR says 6 weeks is normal for this sort of thing. So, gotta plan for that.  I was driving home yesterday and suddenly realized the dog-food bags I get surely count as 'lifting', because they AREN'T small! 

5) Takeaway is that things are looking good.  Nothing has alarmed my doctors, which is a really good sign.

-boogie
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So, I have no idea how fast news spreads among my friends and chosen-family, but I wanted to set down an update/ heads-up for everyone.  Monday, I went home with what I thought was a kidney stone... it had all the right symptoms, right down the line.  I laid down for a few hours, but when the pain got worse, not better, I went to my local urgent care clinic, who took X-rays, and then sent me off to get CT scans...

As I was coming home Monday, I got a call from the original doc I saw in the urgent care clinic - 'it's not a kidney stone.  it's an unexpected mass.'

Needless to say, this was a shock.  I swear to you, my first thought was, 'What happened to the kidney stone?  It was supposed to be a kidney stone!'

They made an appointment for me with a general surgeon, who sent me to my OBGYN.  (Which was the right call, this just wasn't his area.)  Saw the OBGYN today.

The dx is: giant uterine fibroid.  And by 'giant', I mean from belly button level almost to hip socket joint level'.  Seriously, I was looking at this thing and going 'I bet that weighs 5 pounds!'  Even the OB said she'd never seen one that big.  Basically, it's an alien baby.

This is actually very good news, from my point of view, especially after vague, alarming pronouncements made earlier in the week.  For 1) uterine fibroids are treatable with a range of options, the most severe of which (hysterectomy) has a very low risk to the patient, although I suppose recovery isn't that much fun.  2) unlike PCOS, it doesn't really mess with endocrine system issues, and thus introduces yet another spinning plate in the line of plates spinning on sticks...

Most importantly, IT'S NOT CANCER.  Cancer is a scary beast, and even the best outcomes aren't grand in the risk-reward category.  And also, FUCK CANCER.

I'm going back next Thursday for an ultrasound to allow for better definition of the fibroid mass, and doc and I will talk treatment options.  If I can figure out where to host the image(s), I'll even post pix of the CT scans.

I don't want anyone to worry, ok?  Things are good, or at least, workable.

Just, you know, with a alien baby in attendance...

-boogieshoes...
 

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I've been experiencing a resurgence of interest in Sentinel-fanfic, not sure why.  My mother's father recently died*, so it's possible I'm feeling really nostalgic 'remember the good times' feelings as a way to deal, but anyway....

So, Sentinel fandom and Highlander were the first fandoms, at the same time, that I found myself involved in.  I know what attracted me to both shows, the 'what-if?' factor.  For Highlander, it was 'what if these long-lived people existed?  how do they view the world?  And I could do a bit of meta on that, but that's a separate post.  For Sentinel, it was 'what if these people existed, how would it change things? And not? And *wow*, there's a reasonable scientific basis for the senses occurring, even if the mystical stuff is, well mystical! (But I love the mystical part anyway, lol.)

And so I find myself re-reading fanfic as archived on AO3, and reading some of the fanlore wiki, and realizing that fandom really had a far-reaching affect on a lot of *other* fandoms.  I knew that, of course, because you see all those Sentinel AUs all over the place, even in fandoms like TeenWolf where it the main audience may never even have heard of the show the AU is referring to.  But Sentinel is, as someone once said, 'the little black dress of fandom'.  It really does go with everything - even with properties that don't actually need any more things to hit the supernatural/ mystical/ existential button (like, Dragonriders of Pern, Heralds of Valdemar, Supernatural...) you can see the Sentinels everywhere, and it's fun. 

And also, I find myself being inspired to write, although I know it won't happen right away.  I want to write, sort of as a gift to Sen-dom, a piece with the same style of Asimov's 'Commentaries on the Bible'.  Only, on the fictional book, Burton's 'Sentinels of Paraguay'.  And I find myself wondering how many 'quotes' people have made up from that book.  And also thinking I need to re-watch the series so I can find canon quotes.  And then I thought, it would be great if these commentaries were able to pull off something like Cesca's utterly incredible "Written by the Victors" (fanlore entry, AO3 story link), using historical sources describing the controversy over 'the Ellison case' (complete with quotes from TSbyBS, the published-unpublished book, entries from 'The Memoirs of Simon Banks' which has an edition out annotated by Daryl Banks...).  Something which leads the reader to assume that in that future time when the Commentaries are written, Sentinels and Guides (because I swing that way!) are common, or at least commonly known about, and part of the everyday fabric of society, much like the Bible and it's influences.

And I definitely want to finish my Mag 7.5 piece, which is a fusion between Magnificent 7 and Susan Foster's GDP universe. 

Speaking of which, I think I read one of my own comments on the fanlore page about the GDP**, at least it sounded like me.  But it was capitalized correctly, and even now, I'm only half-way into capitalization unless i'm writing an actual story.  (I got into the habit of not capping in posts during college, when we actually had to worry about how many bits and bytes the messages used...)  Anyway, the comment was to the effect of, "The GDP-verse is an incredible idea, with some great world-building, and some really lousy execution."  It's the 'great idea/ lousy execution' part of that that makes me wonder if it was my quote.  Certainly i'm not the only one who's said that, but that particular set of words is a common turn of phrase of mine.  And whether or not the fanlore page has my comment or someone else's, i stand by the evaluation - there's a lot of writing execution factors in many of the stories -strained wording, plot holes, flipping tenses, etc - and there's a lot of 'didn't think through the implications' factors in the stories, too, like making the US, Canada, and America one giant country with no explanation of how it got that way, and the impact on history.  Which it would have had, and how much and what would depend on when and 'where' the uniting had come from. 

Still, as ideas go... it has a ton of potential, and I really wish I could come up with ideas like that on my own.  Alas, I am, like the commercial, not the person who invents things, just the one who likes to make them *better*.  And yes, I'm well aware how egotistical it sounds to put it that way, and 'better' in the case of fanfic and other arts and crafts is a matter of opinion, for sure.  But the whole 'sussing out the puzzle pieces and putting it together to see the big picture' thing is an innate part of my personality - i *think* about things like this, ruminate over them.  cogitate.  If i were a cow, whole pastures would disappear beneath my hooves as i thought over the whys and wherefores and hows and the 'what does it really mean?' 's part of stories.  I don't think of this as particularly creative, as I associate creativity with originality... so I'd never take credit for idea origination.  But yeah, a large part of my interior motivation to write fic is 'gotta fix it'***.   I just hope i don't insult anyone in the process...

So here's to nostalgia, and the most delightful little black dress in the world, and inspiration to write! *chugs a glass of tullamore dew*
-boogieshoes

*Grandpa was 95+, and we all knew it was going to be this year, I think.  He died the best death possible, if such a thing *is* possible - in bed, surrounded by family, lucid until he went to sleep.

** The GDP universe is one where Sentinels and Guides are known.  Sentinels are up-held as unassailable heroes, and Guides are pretty much 2nd class citizens, with laws and customs in place that make it difficult to impossible to protect a Guide from an abusive Sentinel.  The Guide Development Project, charged with training and protecting Guides until they are matched with Sentinels, is sometimes the source of the worst offenses, but can rarely, if ever, be held accountable.

*** This is also a major reason I tend to be hesitant about writing a lot of things I think about.  I don't ever want to imply someone's idea is broken or not worth it.  I wouldn't spend time on it if I didn't think it had some merit.  But I sort of wish I could stick an explanatory note on a lot of my stuff - 'I'm putting beads on the cross-stitch pattern!'  Because like my stitching - I wouldn't do it if I didn't like the pattern, but I love putting beads on it to make it 'better'.

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i have a slight touch of synesthesia - mostly, i interpret sounds as touches(1).  usually, ghost touches, barely there touches, but the more tired i get, the more intense it is.  and i can't block it out.  and today at work, for some reason, we had a concatenation of circumstances that was, literally, impossible to work through:

1) i was exhausted, that mind-numbing fatigue that's all-pervading. 
2) i was trying to read and understand really complex, new-to-me information, and integrate with how i normally do things, at least on a mental level
3) there was a span of about an hour or 2 where it seemed like everybody and god was jabbering at once around our area.

this is coupled with the normal woes of work:
4) our building is basically made to echo, badly - steel girders in the industrial look, with an angled metal roof and exposed ducting for the HVAC system, which produces quite a bit of noise on it's own
5) we live in a half-height cubicle farm, which does absolutely NOTHING to absorb sound while
6) we (all of us) are on the phone a lot in meetings/ Webexes with colleagues across the seas.  you can't just keep your voice down, because people need to here you.  and then if you need to discuss something with local colleagues, all the sound transmits, distorts, and reflects across the very large room.  it's never quiet.

today, during the time-period of #3, i literally could not work, could not concentrate, and the noise was so *much*.  normally, my experience through the day is like getting hit with a bunch of pillows in a pillow-fight, repeatedly.  today, ugh.  i wrote a bit of a free-verse poem describing the experience, and thought i'd transcribe it here for anyone who'd like to get an idea of what things are like with synesthesia:

      sound like padded mallets against my skin
          sharp staccato slaps of doors closing
          stinging buzz of conversation
          my own ears ringing, echoing like constant tapping on my skin

                       Audio reflections constantly jingling
                                 pushing me this way and that.

         Let me out of this building!
               Let sound fall away like water
                    draining from the land.
               Let me be free!
                    and breathe.


-boogie, poetical

(1) well, and i often interpret colors as having texture/ feel all on their own, but that's not relevant here.

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for what it's worth, i'm dropping a quick note to say that i'm going on vacation and will be incommunicado for about a week.  i don't post enough that people usually worry, but in case you're wondering, there i go, on the stage, er.... anyway.  looking forward to vacation, and also coming back. :)

-boogie
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So, some time ago, I promised a list of the embroidery finishes I did for 2017, and some pictures to go with.  Most of the following are fairly small/ or were started in prior years, and going forward, I'm trying to finish my WIP (works-in-progress) stash before starting new projects.  Predictably, this means I started a peacock kit at some point last year, instead of finishing one of my other kits, heh.


9 finishes in 2017! )


SPlans for 2018 )

-boogie, making a grab for the thimbles

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2017 appears to be starting off on the right foot at least.  I remember last year, I started by getting the flu that was going around - TWICE.  Things never quite picked up after that.

This year, I hope things are better, both in general and for personal health/ house health/ etc.





HOUSEHOLD MAINTENANCE

potion no. 9 especially )


HOUSEHOLD UPDATES

i'm gonna make this house my home )




GARDEN PLANS

i will get things to grow, darnit! )





LANDSCAPING GALORE

and i'll have a pretty yard! )




SCA SKILL SETS

i especially want to improve arch-ing )




STITCHING GALLERY

i'm really trying to finish old stuff before starting new stuff. really. )




FANNISH ENDEAVORS
i promise this year will be better! )





PERSONAL ADMINISTRATION

i expect to nail this one again... watch me fall on my face )






HEALTH MAINTENANCE

tum-te-tum-tum - hey, donuts! )


FURNITURE PROJECTS

ah, the sweet sounds of saws! )




WISHING THESE WISHES WERE MINE

alms for the poor? anyone? )



So, a final note here - especially with the fannish things and trying to keep up community journals and things, I think the home PC being set up will help a lot.  I've already mentioned the advantages of the pilates up there. :)

-boogieshoes, busy as a beaver
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Well, 2017 turned out to be a busy year, and part of that was the improved health over 2016.  I never seem to make all my goals, but having the list and keeping it updated really helps a lot.  Let's see what happened this year:


Household Maintenance )


Household Updates )


Garden Plans )


Landscaping Galore )

SCA skill sets )

Stitching Gallery )


Fannish Endeavors )


Personal Administration )

Health Maintenance )


Furniture Projects )

Wishing these wishes were mine )


Overall, I'd say 2017 has been a good year. I felt productive at work and at home, and my health has had a great improvement.  I'm really looking forward to the new year, and doing a lot more.  Hopefully, that will include fannish endeavors - I'm working on setting up my DW account to mirror the set-up and feeds I had on my LJ account.  I'm trying to update my FB to be more me-friendly.  I'm going to try to spend Saturday afternoons/ evenings on the PC doing writing or other electronic-related things, probably starting around late March.  But I'm happy to be alive, and in 2016 at this time, I wasn't even sure I *was* alive.  So... let's get to the new year, eh?

-boogieshoes, the much improved.
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1) my parents are coming to visit me this year, instead of me visiting them - this means besides being really excited, I get to try to do both my '2017 Have-done' post and '2018 To-Do' post on time this year.  Yay!

2) Because I am going to be here at home this year, I'm going to try to get fully on dreamwidth from livejournal.

3) I have discovered I'm old:  I have a computer so old and decrepit (a 2000-era CTX rebuild) that the local computer store has to send it out to specialists to retrieve the data from it.  Because the CTX has become an archaeological artifact instead of a technological one.  I got that computer shortly after college - when did I become officially older than dirt?  And also, it's going to cost $$.  Because archaeology, not technology.

4) I am trying to forward all the FB posts that go across my newsfeed to my email, because i hate using the FB interface, but I'd like to interact more with people... many of whom mostly do FB, as opposed to something more logical, like writing on stone tablets.  So my first effort was to change my notifications to send me email whenever anything like posts and messages to me happen.  So of course, the first 5 messages that came in were in a different forum altogether...

5) I have decided on Google-plus for image hosting, which means that sometime over Christmas break, I will upload my embroidery pics and will make a post - hopefully - on things I have done this year. (I kept track, I was rather productive!)

So that's the state of boogie today.  Abbie is sacked out on the couch, per usual.

-boogie

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