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boogieshoes ([personal profile] boogieshoes) wrote2014-06-07 06:47 pm
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Enter the ranty-pants: "the conversation"

I was bonding with our intern the other day over the dropped-jaw reaction to our profession – which is ‘aerospace engineering’. We both agreed that we were tired of the conversation. You know, the one that goes:

Random Person (RP): So, what do you do? (What’s you’re major?)
Me: I’m an aerospace engineer.
RP: …
RP: …

Now, I know that dropping that profession on someone is kind of like accidentally meeting a famous actor at a random grocery store. Average, every-day people generally don’t expect things like that to happen, and they’re caught off-guard. So I understand the mental fumbling around for something to say. I’m willing to give a little bit of slack for that.

But still, it causes me to cringe a little bit if people can’t just take it in stride, because that means the next part of the conversation has a good chance of being a disaster, especially because, yes, I’m a female engineer, and for some reason, that attracts a lot of negative commentary. Or maybe it’s the fact that I’m so obviously not worried about being traditionally feminine, with make-up and frilly (or even just expensive) clothes and what-not. Whatever the reason, if RP is male, the next part of the conversation often sounds like he’s trying to impress me or one-up me or otherwise diminish my worth:

RP: So I guess you got a nice car, well I’ve got a (insert some vehicle here).

Men from the Baen Books circles often do this with guns:

RP: Yeah, but I bet you can’t shoot a gun – I’ve got a Mosin-Nagent I just bought for $50 dollars!

RP: But how much money do you make?

Both sexes will often ask the following question:

“What does your husband think of your career?”

And upon hearing that I’m not married, “Well, I guess that’s ok while you’re single, but what happens when you find someone?”

From women specifically, I often get the implication that I’m less of a woman because I don’t have/ am not really wanting children. The read I get on the situation is that they’re somehow threatened by me, which is weird, because I’ve never been the one attracting boyfriends or playing for guys or whatever it is women get caught up in. (I don’t hang out with a ton of other ladies; I’ve always been ‘one of the guys’.)

When someone makes a crack that I’m not dateable because I’m (too smart, too independent, too tough, been alone too long, whatever), I usually exit stage left. Often, without even saying ‘Excuse me’ or some other social lubricant phrase, and not even because I’m angry or irritated. The conversation happens often enough that by now I’m just resigned and bored. And who wants to be stuck in a boring and insulting conversation?

Oddly enough, I tend *not* to get these responses from other engineers. I suppose it’s a lot like being a female pilot or race-car driver: there comes a point where the skills you know are universally acknowledged among the subset you belong to as being tough to acquire. Those with said skills are respected by their subset regardless of gender, somewhat to the bafflement of some of the more zeal-infused feminists you run across. This doesn’t, by the way, mean they fawn on me. No, they treat me with respect, and measure my opinions against their own experience. This is how it should be.

The one reaction that cracked me up the most was when one of my co-workers asked me if I wasn’t going to stop working if I ever had a baby to take care of the child. My response?

“Why should I? There’s a high probability I’ll be making more money than my husband will, so why would I jeopardize the financial security of my family by letting him be the sole income-earner? If someone should stay home, the logical thing is the person making the least do that.”

He’d never thought about it like that – he was raised in a traditional family, and wanted a traditional family, and it never occurred to him that for me, the money situation would be reversed. I’d have given my right arm to take a picture of his face at that moment, the reaction was priceless. He did admit I had a point, but it wasn’t something he’d prefer. And that’s ok, as long as he’s ok with my own preferences being different than his.

But the point of this long introduction is that I was thinking about the reaction of other people to me and my chosen profession and education, and I could feel a rant. I want to emphasize that I’m not mad at any particular person, nothing has happened recently, but surely, there are other women out there like me, who are tired of the conversation. So I’m going to have a little fun here and put some ranty-pants on, and see if I ring a bell for anyone.

So in the form of a list:



  1. Yes, I am a female.
  2. Yes, I have a BS in aerospace engineering from Texas A&M University.
  3. Yes, I have a MS in Fluid Flow and Propulsion from the U of Cincinnati.
  4. Yes, I have a good-paying job.
  5. Yes, it’s in my field of choice.
  6. Yes, I do well enough at it that I see it at bonus-time and through positive feedback.
  7. I am not too smart.
  8. I am not too stubborn.
  9. I am not too physically strong.
  10. I am not too independent.
  11. I am not too capable.
  12. I have not lived alone too long.
  13. No, there is not "too much math" in my life.
  14. I am not too cold.
  15. I am not too emotionally distant.
  16. I am not frigid.
  17. I am not asexual (as in, having no libido).
  18. I am not a lesbian. I have nothing against lesbians, but I’m about as straight as can be.
  19. I am not too masculine.
  20. I am not too butch.
  21. I do not have to wear make-up or dresses to conform to some ill-defined idea of femininity.
  22. I don’t actually need to feel feminine. Or masculine. I’ve come round to the point where I’m pretty comfortable identifying as gender-neutral.
  23. I do not need to have someone make a real woman out of me.
  24. I do not need to have children to feel complete.
  25. I don’t hate children, even if I don’t want them.
  26. I do not need to get married. I want to, and to have a committed relationship similar to my parents and other long-term relationships I hold in high esteem, but ‘want’ is a long way from ‘need’.
  27. I am not impressed by your wallet. I make plenty of money.
  28. I am not impressed by your car. Mostly because I’m not a car-person, but also, because I have a perfectly serviceable truck of my own. His name is Zeke.Zeke.
  29. I am not impressed by your guns. This is mostly because guns make lots of loud noises, and I find that bothers me more than the concept of guns themselves. Also, guns are like hammers. They’re tools. When I feel the need to get a gun, I’ll get one, and take the appropriate safety courses. But I am not impressed by your collection of guns, just like I’m not impressed by your collection of power-tools.
  30. Yes, I have my own power-tools, and can use them competently.
  31. I am not impressed that you have seen the elephant*, and I can’t. I will be impressed if you accept my wish to have been there in the patriotic spirit it is offered.
  32. I am not impressed by your career, whatever that is. I’ll be impressed if you can answer questions coherently and transmit knowledge in a manner that is neither patronizing nor too vague to do any actual good.
  33. I do not need to act stupid to attract a man. In fact, I refuse to do so. If you can’t handle me the way I am, I’m not the woman for you.
  34. I do not speak the way I do to ‘act superior’ to others. I enjoy being precise in my use of language, and linguistic history and etymology. In the English language, the prevailing trend is that the more precisely nuanced the word is, the more syllables it has, and often, the more archaic-sounding to the 21st century ear it is.
  35. I do not keep silent to act superior to others. I keep silent because I have nothing to say, and/or believe I won’t be listened to anyway. I do not enjoy wasting effort.





Talking to me is actually fairly easy if you remember the following things:




  1. Talk to *me*. Don’t talk to who you think I am, don’t talk to your fetish object, don’t talk to what you think I must like or be or do. Don’t talk to the woman you want to be your little girl’s hero. Talk to me. I’ve got opinions and logic of my own. They’re probably different than what you think they should be.
  2. *Listen* to me. Listen to my answers when you ask questions. If you ask a question twice, because of noise, that’s one thing. But if you ask a question and then a) don’t stop to let me answer and/or b) interrupt me while I’m answering, or c) ask the same thing in five minutes because you didn’t pay attention the first time, I’m going to get irritated. But especially, don’t hear what you think I should be saying, hear what I actually say.
  3. Respect other people for being human beings. This means treating others like you would like to be treated, and listening politely when they speak. You don’t have to agree with them, you don’t have to like them, you may wind up facing them in battle, but that’s a far cry from acting like they’re dirt.
  4. Understand that I like to build things. I have my own (small but growing) stash of carpentry tools and ideas. I like fixing things. I don’t usually complain about stuff because I need help with it, but because it’s irritating the snot out of me. In fact, this is the one area where I’m most like a traditional woman – assuming I need help to solve whatever problem I’m complaining about isn’t the best idea. Unless I specifically ask for help, don’t assume I need it.
  5. Yes, I’m a lot like Temperance Brennan of Bones. I know a lot of random stuff and will often dispense information without making the connections for others. You’ll probably have to work to get me out of my ‘safe zone’. My safe zone happens to be mathematics and physics. Comforting to me is reviewing my continuum mechanics equations, and I have been known to practice integrals and/or differentials when I’m stressed. Emotions are outside my comfort zone – I often have difficulty identifying them in myself, let alone others. Processing emotions can be a longer affair than you may be used to. But I’m not cold or frigid or emotionally distant.
  6. According to Meyers-Briggs, I'm a 100% introvert. What this means in the engineering world is that I talk to my own shoes. What this means in the interaction in other social situations is that I do not do all that well with groups more than 5 or 6 people large. In addition, I can get overstimulated when surrounded by large numbers of people and a lot of noise. I do better in the open air. But either indoors or outdoors, whether there's a lot of people around or just a few, even if I love every one of them, eventually I'm going to shut down and need to go to a private area to decompress. Don't take offense if I don't invite you to help me decompress - if I'm shutting down, even one more person is going to be a bit much for a while.
  7. Understand that I'm someone who tends to take things literally. Ask Strega42 if you don't believe me, but the following, especially when I'm tired, is not actually an *uncommon* occurrence: I was in a restaraunt once with a bunch of friends, and the waitress came around and asked if we were ready to order. I said 'Yes.' and stopped. She hadn't, after all, asked *what* we wanted to order, only if we were ready. So if I tell you I don't need help - well, I don't *need* help, but that doesn't mean I don't *want* help - or other things. Sometimes, you're going to have to ask both questions to get the right answer.
  8. Understand that I may not be the woman for you, but that doesn’t require you to belittle me or insult me by making a crack about me being undateable or frigid or whatever. Incompatibility doesn’t mean you’re superior to me. It doesn’t mean you’re inferior and need to make yourself feel better, either.




In summary, I am who I am, and don’t need to change for you or anyone else to be fine just as I am. Can we have a different conversation, now?


-boogieshoes, the proud, independent, strong, working professional



* 'Seeing the elephant' is a euphemism for going into battle. Most of my military friends will agree that the metaphor fits, because battle isn't like anything else people face, therefore being nearly impossible to describe to someone who hasn't already been there. Just like it's impossible to convey the impression an elephant makes to someone who's experience of large animals stops at draft horses.


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